soccermom

So far today I have done really well-I have eaten healthy, took my kids to the park to play soccer, jump roped with my daughter,and have just had a healthy day.  Now however, as the sun is setting I feel like ordering a pizza with a side of chocolate!  Luckily my husband is being strong and grilling chicken breasts for us.  I find myself wondering how I can be so miserable feeling overweight and unhappy with my looks but so cranky when I can’t have the foods that caused me to get that way.  Shouldn’t I just feel good about myself for being healthy and exercising?  Why do I want to curl up in bed with ANY kind of junk food?  I must break through this cycle but it seems like it should not be so hard!!!!!  Anyone else have this problem?

I love Friday because I have the day off work and my older kids are in school so I can somewhat catch up on a few things (with the help of my 15 month old).  My daughter’s birthday (7th) is on Sunday so today we went out birthday shopping.  I managed to get party supplies, a couple of gifts and stuff for the house before my son needed a nap but I still need to find the Hannah Montana singing birthday card she saw at the store.  When my son wakes up we will take the dog for a 2 mile walk (hopefully!).  My daughter will want to go to Chuck E Cheese for her b-day which is fine because I hate the pizza-it’s the Coke that will be my downfall.  My soccer team starts in a week and a half so I hope to start running again this weekend.  I hope everyone is having a great day!

OK this morning I was running late and forget to grab breakfast before I left the house!  I made it through the morning at work on gum and water but as soon as I got home this afternoon I was starving and just starting eating!  I didn’t eat a ton-just a lot of easy junk food and now I feel bad.  I have a very hard class tonight where I feel lost so that will not make me feel better.  Tomorrow is a new day!!!!

OK since yesterday was my first official day of trying to lose weight I felt great.  I ate only healthy foods, didn’t just sit around watching TV etc.  It’s funny because I felt like the weight should just be falling off in one day I felt so great.  Now it is day 2 and I am exhausted!  We had tornados in our area last night so we had to get all 3 kids to the basement around 12:30.  Luckily there weren’t any touchdowns close to us but we did not get much sleep and I just feel like lying around and eating.  I am at work now and this afternoon I volunteer at my kids school then I have to go home and take a midterm for a class I am taking online-no rest anytime soon! 

OK I have finally had enough of the body I am in.  After 3 kids and years of not paying attention my body is not what I want it to be.  I have been looking at different weight loss plans online and was intrigued by this site.  My thought is why pay for a program-if it doesn’t work I will still feel bad and be out money.  I want to lose about 30 pounds for a number of reasons.  My clothes don’t fit anymore, I am tired a lot, and I just don’t feel like myself.  I like to exercise it is just hard to find the time and make the commitment.  My husband and I have just signed up for an indoor soccer league so that should help, the only problem is right now I am so out of shape I hope I can keep up!  I went to the grocery store last night and stocked up on fruits and veggies instead of chips and ice cream.  I would love to hear from others and I hope posting my stories keeps me motivated!